Preparation.

Prepare yourself mentally for that which cannot be prepared for mentally.


-S. See. V

"The Grey" ensemble

I was never really one for poetry, but I really feel that this poem captures the essence of the beginning and the end of defeat and self regret.  It doesn't have to do with me personally, but rather, a reflection on what we all may go through at our deepest and darkest moments; as well as the perseverance.  It is the choices we make when faced with adversity that define the person we are.

"As I stare at defeat, I remember what was, and now what is…

What hope had lasted, what hope had faded…

I tremble beneath, broken and exhausted…

Thoughts of betrayal, confused and departed…

The tears of the trials pour down my face…

Nowhere to look, not even a trace...

When I went no lower is when I saw the top…

It meant to fall is to rise, so I will not stop…

For when I rest, is when I’ve died…

So I know that I tried…

To fail is no option, not even a thought…

And now I see, after all that I fought…

We were always together…

We will never surrender…

The choice that I make…

For none to take…"

This was inspired from the film, "The Grey" starring Liam Neeson.

-S. See. V

Short story, Part 1 of 5. "Fred"

There once was a guy named Fred.  He had a house with a beautiful wife and two children.  One day he had decided to leave work early.  However, Fred never left work early.  He was the type of guy who was the first one in to work and last one out, always volunteering to do the extra work no one wanted to do.  Fred felt uneasy leaving work early but chose to leave nevertheless.  On the way home Fred decided to pick up food from a local fast food restaurant, which was also very uncharacteristic of Fred.  He took his family out once a month to a fancy restaurant and in all the in between days stuck to a healthy diet that him and his family actually really enjoyed.  As Fred left the fast food restaurant he looked at the bag in disgust but still decided to eat every last bit.  As Fred pulled into his driveway he stood motionless contemplating the choices he was going to make.  He knew that it was for the best but was hesitant nonetheless.  Fred punched in his garage key code and began to walk into the house.  He took one last look at his car and realized he had forgot something. What did he forget?

The series continues tomorrow.  Let me hear what you think might happen.

-S. See V.

Boiling, fuming, and steaming

No, I am not talking about food.  Oddly enough each of those phrases also pertains to our tipping points we have as human beings.  It defines our saddest, loneliest, angriest moments in our lives.  My point is that it never results it any good most of the time.  That is unless you control it.  To some of us those few words I used in the title pertain to a point of no return.  Where you have lost your "cool."  But it doesn't have to be that way.  Let me give you "lesser" evil of an example that you've most likely been involved in.  Have you ever been around someone/anyone who was making an annoying sound by you? It usually goes as follows...

Stage one.

 In your head you're thinking at first, "O, God please make him/her shut up."

Stage two.

You still haven't said anything and the noise has still persisted, seemingly louder; and more annoying in your head you start to think, "If this person doesn't shut up I am going to literally punch him/her in the face." Even though you probably wouldn't, as much as you would like to.

Stage three.

Finally, you're trying to concentrate even harder, and the noise still hasn't stopped; even though you have been telepathically yelling at this person and staring a whole right through him/her for the past few minutes.
Then comes the outburst, you yell, scream, or throw a combination of the two followed along with an insult. Your "tipping" point.  I know each and every one of you has been in these situations.  Not everyone has always verbally lashed out at the person, but you may forever hate/strongly dislike that person. Now keep in mind this is merely a minute example of what these situations can bring you to.  This goes all the way from annoying noises to a hateful act.

 However, why must it be that way?  It is as if this boiling or fuming stage finally gives you the courage to say something.  Just as a bashful person gains the dauntlessness to approach a woman he wouldn't approach in a million years after hes been drinking.  Here is the query I have with this subject though.  If something bothers you, why don't you just say something before you reach your tipping point.  Because, when you reach your tipping point you usually make irrational foolish decisions just as you if you had been intoxicated.  The two are eerily similar, and in the end the two can be just as distasteful.  If you have a problem with someone, tell them.

Now here's my only stipulation to this.  The true challenge to this daunting task is to approach it as calm and as cool as you would any situation.  You can't be aggressive in approach, nor can you be disrespectful in tone.  Overcome your fears of approach.  You will be faced with them your whole life.  Healthy approach is key here, making the ending result healthy as well.

"If you succumb to fear, the pain will gladly subdue you."



-S. See. V

Judgement day, the day is now.

Let's face it, we all have our flaws.  Whether it be internal, external, known, or unknown (subconsciously differed).  They exist, some more troubling than others.  The realism of it is that for most of us we would prefer not to have them exploited.  Whether direct, or indirect; they hurt nonetheless.  To me it's such a troubling situation though.  So many things are dictated upon the predication of judgement of one another.  Who are we to judge though? I don't sit here saying I have never judged anyone, that would be a lie.  I find myself guilty of it all the time.  The difference is when I have judged another human being I don't state it to the world and let it be known.  I always keep them to myself.  Therein lies the challenge though. I must dismay those thoughts in the first place and pray for forgiveness. Yes, I am a man of strong faith; but, for those who don't believe in God, or absolution I ask you to seek the same solution, forgiveness of yourself, the will to change, and to strive for improvement.

People like me are not the one's that I am referring to though.  Like I stated before, I challenge myself; and, all that are like me to question your own judgement.  Place yourself off whatever pedestal you place yourself on.  For those extroverted, inconsiderate selves; can't you ask more from yourself?  Don't you have much more to worry about yourself?  If you are sitting there thinking, "I don't have any flaws and the flaws of others are of no concern of mine", then what good are you doing to this society? Use whatever special skills you have been given to do whatever good you can.  We will all continue to judge, but the most important part of all of this is to strive for improvement.  Always keep your judgement's to yourself.  I can remember so many times the judgement's of another's flaws being used for the expense of comedic relief.  I know we all have.  But truthfully, in some way, the level of your comedic relief is directly related to the seriousness of one's issues.  So, I challenge you to take a deeper look within yourself, and to judge yourself so you can strive towards that improvement. Improve yourself, because every single one of us needs to; no exceptions.  

Lastly, never hesitate to cast judgement on those who judge for the single purpose of ridicule.  Stand up for those who need help standing.  We all need to work together sooner or later.  Like I said before, "the day is now."

"Judgement is the root of insecurities."

-S. See. V.

Refuse to be stagnant.

First, I would like to introduce myself. I am Shawn from a small Chicago suburb. This is my first blog ever and I figured it would be a really great idea to get back into my first passion, writing.  I'll be the first to admit that I'm not the most grammatical writer in the world but the words that I share with you will be as deep and profound as any other's.

So, what brought me here?  To put it simply I was bored.  But it was a restless boredom.  I know that I needed to do something with my life but I am always full of excuses.  I find ways to get out of doing what is best for myself.  But, I am sick of just nearly getting by.  I don't struggle as much as some of us out there.  I am very fortunate for what I have and have never really taken any of that for granted.  Besides the fact that I don't hold myself to greater standards.  I am just absolutely sick of sitting around and making the same decisions that I made the day before.  I have so much talent within myself that I just need to harness.  I believe that it's the case for many of us out there.  We all play our roles in this world.  Some may be more fortunate than other's.  But when it comes right down to it, as we hear time and time again, it's whoever wants it most (and who you know).  There are always going to be things that will hold you back and not let you proceed with your life as you would like it.  However, it is merely a test to see how you will face your struggles.  Maybe tomorrow everything will be against me and I won't be able to keep myself driven but, at that very moment is when I must realize that I have to keep going.  I know I am not the only one who goes over what you could accomplish in your life if you, "just do it" as Nike would say.  But, I love that phrase because it holds true over many spectrum's in your life.  I was faced with that precarious situation earlier this day.  As I stood "stagnant" and bored, I realized I had two choices.  I could do something productive with my day or I could force myself to play more video games, watch Netflix, or eat.  I just couldn't do it.  I needed to find motivation  any way I can.

I am very different than most people though.  Not by choice.  If you know me at all you would never think of me as a sit down and writing type of person.  I am extremely eccentric and as amicable as can be.  I have always been extremely creative.  A thinking outside of the box type of person.  In fact, that is what has gotten me in trouble most of my life.  Constantly dozing off about things at the most inopportune moments is what it came down to for me.  For me though I loved to doze off.  I embraced it.  It was time time to sit and understand why people did what they did.  I always found myself studying every aspect of a person and teaching myself how to read people.  I've always been a natural at it.  But it was the very root of my creativity.  And when it comes right down to it I have always tried to understand people for the greater good of people.  I always loved helping people in any way that I can.  So, in the end it was the reason I decided to eventually choose a blog to do such a thing.  I want to go over what goes on in my head on day to day topics which could entail advice, my own life's progress, societal views, etc..  As random as my thoughts enter my head is as random as I will spill it out on this "blahg" layout for you too enjoy.  I invite you to question my view points in any way you choose.  For I realize it may or may not be the right or appropriate response but, nevertheless, it will help me to keep understanding you people out there. As I always tell people, "One of your greatest challenges will be understanding where people come from and why they do the things they do.  At the end of the day your grasp of that very statement will determine how much energy you have expended on the basis of that very precedent."

-S.See.V